This is what comes to my mind. She knows it won't work with him for some reason(his family,her family,kids,housing,money who knows). She still has feelings for me. This drug is not going to go away easy. She wants to cut it off with him but can't. Has told me I'm the missing part in her life. Even when it's with him and the kids or just her with the kids or just her, I'm missing. But when it's just her and him she is some what happy but thinks why couldn't husband do this. Do I believe all this or not? That is the huge question! How long do I hold on to hope?
The addiction is powerful. How long this will go on is anyone's guess. How long you hold on to hope is entirely up to you. If the two of you get D and she should decide to M the OM, then I hope you won't keep hanging on, b/c that would seem like such a terrible way to live out your life. Till then, we don't know what may happen. Does she still have feelings for you and miss you like she says? Probably to some degree, however, the addiction to the A has a stronger pull on her right now. Who knows what may happen through this month to change her direction.
BTW, you sounded as if you were making your goodbyes earlier. I hope you will continue to stick around a while longer.
So sorry you are going through this pain.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
