still holding on - 5

[u-turn]

Thanks T-Mom. I am sorry that you are here. Hang in there.

Nothing was mentioned about this conversation last night or this morning. This is not unusual, she will sweep it away and I will not bring it up and the cycle continues.

Does she think that I have forgotten about this or anything this year?

I don't think it is prudent to revisit and talk about all of the things that make me not trust her - it seems to be a score card. I am not looking to be re-payed or win anything. I just want to start again - but I know this is up to her. She seems to be looking for a script from me (what do you want me to say?). I don't want to tell her because she will repeat it back to me and I probably won't believe it. I don't know how to rebuild trust.

I was at my kids swim meet last night (I love watching them swim), when I got home she had a story from work and she went to bed - she looked exhausted. I did some work and went to bed a little later. I am so exhausted by this.

She is planning on leaving her job on Mar 1 to go to another facility. This is a move away from OM, but that is not what is driving the change. I know that this does not solve anything, but I certainly couldn't hurt. I wish it could happen quicker.