Ok, so I put my big girl panties on and instead of crawling into bed like I wanted to, I went to Crossfit, set a new personal record, slammed some [censored] around and decided a few things.
Goals/GAL/GTFOM 1. take care of myself. I look like death warmed over. Skin looks horrible, I'm dehydrated, my hair is blah. I haven't painted my toe nails in forever. Remedy this.
2. Gain weight. Stat. I've lost 30 pounds, Where I needed to drop like, 5. I use to think this was my goal weight. It's not. While my stomach is nice and flat, I've lost all my curves. I miss my booty. And I can't afford to buy all new clothes.
3. Crossfit - 3x week minimum. I was making amazing progress before BD I've lost all of that strength and progress. I am so pissed and determined to get that back. I'd like to do a competition in 2015. I did my first one in 2014. One month after BD, and two days after H quit MC saying he was done with everything. hardest day of my life, completing that competition. I had a panic attack in the middle of the first workout. I don't want to be defined by that.
4. Start running again (but that's a spring time thing)
5. Try a new recipe each week. I can't survive any longer off of what I'm doing. This will also be a 180.
6. Sort my house out. Clean it. Put things away. I'm so overwhelmed with this and honestly, I haven't been motivated to do it. But I think I will feel better once I'm not strain at the foot high pile of clothes on my dresser. And maybe I will find my black work pants. This is also another 180/ one of H's complaints about me.
7. Start interacting with friends in person. I'm a homebody. I need out of the house.
8. Try to be less of a sarcastic ass. This is a long shot.
9. Read more. Less relationship books (while still important) and add stuff in that I will enjoy. Maybe read the classics since I haven't read much, if any.
10. Watch ALL the period films, sappy/cheesy stuff on Netflix, because H hated it. While he's gone, imma watch what I want.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
