Yes, I'm most definitely strong enough to outlast this final hurdle. No question. I've earned my stripes and I can do it...IF I CHOOSE.
What concerns me are a number of things:
1. MY JOB. I'm now on the third month with this new job. The company agreed to consider me for a raise after 3 months.
When I started, I was the star. The star has fallen from grace. I'm regaining my foothold and showing improvement each week. I KNOW I can do this...very different from when I started. I, seriously, wasn't sure I could pull this off. Well, I KNOW now that I can and will.
I have the opportunity to prove myself right now. That's where all my energy SHOULD BE. I know this in my soul. I have waited in the darkness for years because of Smokey's addiction. I'm finally out there using the skills God gave me without apologies.
And, once again, he doing what he can to derail me.
A part of me says, "Then remove yourself from the track altogether. Put your train elsewhere."
I'm not sure yet...But, it's the clearest I've felt since this all started...and, I had this clarity BEFORE I took all the Prozac.
Something inside is nudging me, telling me...rethink this whole thing.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
