If we are to D, I will be moving a few states away.
Any job I'd have would start after D and after I move.
Moving my household and studio will take a tremendous amount of work.
I am not going to sell all my furnishings, books and a lifetime's worth of possessions related to my various hobbies--things of true value--just to make a move easier.
I worked hard to earn these things and I plan on keeping them! So it's not like we have an apartment and I have a few suitcases and a box of dishes.
Shoot, if THAT were the case, I would have been long gone by now, I'm afraid.
But we're talking a lot of stuff here people. My ceramics studio ALONE will be something to tackle. It was tough moving everything here, and H was beside me every step of the way. I was ten years younger and not nearly so scrawny.
I said when I moved here that I would never move again. I've moved SO many times in my life, many times with H. I really put down roots for the first time, dug in my heels, did so much work here--the landscaping, stone walls, remodeling, fencing, gardening... it's impressive.
I would really just hate to walk away 3/4 of the way through because my H turned into a jerk. But that may happen. I have no illusions.
But it's not as simple as it sounds, as all.
In the end, I want my own home, with a yard and a garden, and a space for my studio. I want visual and spiritual harmony around me. I need to look at things that please my eyes. I want my pets with me. (Maybe not ALL of them, but several.)
