WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

Thank you all so much for your kind words.

I find it easier to GAL when I still have a glimmer of hope. Its when I start thinking that there really is no hope of us ever getting back together that I struggle to get through the day.

I am just not ready to believe it is really over. I cannot come to terms with that and don't think I ever will.

Friends and family think that because a year has passed I should now have completely moved on and got over this. But it's still so painful. I do not want to see them together. I still want to touch him when he comes round to see the kids. It's pathetic.

I go out with friends quite often, and I think they are all hopeful I will meet someone else but I am not there yet.

My L is making sure I get everything I am entitled to financially when the agreement is drawn up, and I fear this will cause some friction between us, but I have to protect myself and my kids for the future.

At the moment he is being very helpful and has offered to do some jobs around the house, which I have appreciated and told him so.

I am so grateful to all of you here. Reading your posts and your words of wisdom has been so helpful.