Wife has left and filed for divorce

[Wonka]

Wonka, I have done all those things.

It all boils down to this:

Those type of actions reflect a person who suffers from a very, very low self-esteem. Dig deep to get to the root of your self-esteem issues. This is really hard work and where the focus should be squarely on: YOU.

Here are some suggested readings to get you started, Vertex.

The Self-Esteem Workbook, by Glenn R. Schiraldi
Breaking the Chain of Low Self-Esteem, by Marilyn Sorenson
The Self-Esteem Companion: Simple Exercises to Help You Challenge Your Inner Critic and Celebrate Your Personal Strengths by Matthew McKay, PhD.

Good luck with your journey of self-discovery!