The past couple days have been focused on introspection. Remembering what I did, Remembering what she did. And most importantly reflecting on the growth that has occurred (mostly on my side frankly).
A lot of this has been triggered by the re-introduction of my WAW into my life on her end through the process of co-parenting. There are feelings that rise up out of my chest that frankly I would prefer not to feel. They are painful, and similar to the feelings that I felt when she left.
I did a lot of thinking back to the pain, the anguish that both she caused and I caused. It's funny, if the person I am now me the person I was then.... well I would have so much to say.
I wish I had the skills back then to be a better husband, I wish I would have had the strength to change myself, and I wish have had the strength to leave her when I realized she was done with the marriage (years ago) and not put up with years of the pain of a one sided relationship.
It takes two to make a relationship work, and only one to end it. I was attempting the impossible.
Me: 35 Her: 33 D : 16 S : 9 Together: 14 years Married: 12 She left 4/14/2014 Separated: 5/25/2014 OM Confirmed 7/2014 She filed 8/7/2014 I Filed 10/21/2014 Divorce final 2/12/2015
