I echo the advice about going NC. I know you think you are, but there are a lot of posts about a text here and an email there from you. You fear going NC will cause H to avoid you for 7 more months and file. Don't be ruled by fear.
Unfortunately, this may take a long time of NC for H to initiate contact. Right now, H expects you to initiate these 'catch ups' and that isn't drawing him in. H is complying.
Can you go 2-3 months with NC? No text, no email, nothing? It may take that.
And when H does suggest getting together, and I think H will, you should suggest something fun. Don't make it an awkward 30 minute sit around. Say "I'd love to get together. I was thinking about doing X. What do you think?" Show off the fun you.
Defer all R talk on that first meeting. "I understand that you want to talk about the R, and we both have a lot to think about, but tonight I just want to have a fun time."
I know it is counterintuitive, but IMHO, upping your attempts at contact aren't going to be successful. I'm praying for you.
me: 45 W:45 M 20 years T 22 years S14, S13, S11, D9 BD 2/28/14 D papers served 3/3/14 I moved out 3/15/14 MC start 4/2/14 I moved in 6/2/14 D suit withdrawn 6/30/14
