Last night I did some Pinterest searching on Buddhism's view of love. It was very helpful in calming down a soul ache that had deposited itself in my chest from missing contact with BF.
Basically, the point of view is that true love is something that's given "for free". It's not based upon action, inaction or anything else. The quote that resonated with me the most for my sitch was "My love for you is unconditional; your action is irrelevant".
Meaning, mostly, that I can still love him no matter where he is (or not) in my life. And feeling that way is not only okay, but it's a strength on my part.
There's something freeing about that, I guess. It helps me detach so much some how. I guess because I recognize that my emotions are my right, and they don't depend on BF, necessarily.
Whatever. LOL
Dealing with some pretty crappy pain in my shoulder, too. I had an injury, PT didn't help. We're talking about an MRI now, but the pain is achey and burning and constant. Thankfully the doctor is going to give me a prescription for that, so hopefully my day will get better from here.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
