Thanks guys, My kids have been really good about the money thing, much better than my W for sure. W told me a couple weeks ago that she thinks it would be best for her to give D14 a $10 a week allowance on even months and I should do it in odd months. Well, this was an odd month. So, before I took her back to her mom's I offered her $10 for at least this last week. She looked at me and said she was fine and didn't need it. A teenager that turned down cash! She knows how hard it's been and just how broke I am. She asks for very little from me because of this. I am truly blessed to have a D that is so thoughtful. It's more how I feel not being able to get her anything. Her birthday is the week before X-mass so I can't get her anything for THAT either. My D19's birthday was a week after W left. W didn't do anything for her but I had some money at the time and made her a cake and had a small party for her at my house. She was so thankful for just that, knowing that I'm really struggling.
I guess there's something to be thankful for. That I have 2 great kids who understand what I'm going through and appreciate the things I do for them even more since they know how hard it is for me to do anything!
I really think I'm just feeling the way I am because this past TG was the first holiday post W leaving. The way she acted, the way she was so callous about making sure I know that she will get the girls on X-mass because they decided to spend this holiday with me. That and the fact that I'm feeling the stress of getting all the stuff done I need to to start my new job, try to make something before leaving the old, having to go to my parents once again for help, I think it's all just getting to me.
Oh, well. Nothing I can do but keep moving and keep my head in the game. I just don't have time to wallow. I need to leave the "poor me"'s to the MLCers and just get over it!
