.... but I am not very good at dealing with rejection... especially sexually.
That is the problem, just about nobody can handle rejection after rejection after rejection. You have both probably in different ways trained each other in a Pavlovian kind of way to not have sex. And yet, if the two of you are not to give up, someone has to start a "different conditioning" process to encourage openness and initiation.
So if you refuse to initiate and avoid rejections what is the likely outcome? Is that an outcome you want? If not, then you need to change something in the way the two of your interact. That is what the MWD program is all about and the beauty of the 180. It is something you change that forces him to change the way he treats you.
>43 years of marriage--My wife and I are now closer than we have been in decades. I believe that my SSM is over.