Really too late....

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Thanks rd, I know you're right, but I'm getting to a point where I am giving up hope and although he has always been somewhat selfish, this is just making me see that even more clearly. He has his old iphone on a speaker out in the garage (there is also a stereo) I wanted to listen to that while I mulched instead of the same 5 songs on the radio. It has a password on it, I asked him for it and he wouldn't give it to me, put it in himself and made sure I couldn't see. Of course with a stupid smirk on his face. Really? Grow up and quit being such a disrespectful a$$. I asked him to change the password so I could use it. Apparently he hasn't deleted anything off of it and is going to continue hiding things from me.

I have been very tempted to send and anonymous email to ow (if it's still the same one) asking her if she knows he's married. I won't! I know it won't get me anywhere. But seriously, if he's still keeping this long distance affair going while living in my house why so secret. Tell me, you've met someone, this is what's going on. Instead he wants to have his family and comforts of home while getting his emotional needs met somewhere else.

Is he waiting for me to be the bad guy? I'm trying to live my life but these emotional setbacks are making it difficult for me.

On a positive note, I finally got the picture ledges I made hung (with H's help) and they look really good. Now I'm making some frames. I really enjoy building things, who knew. I could use a little more patience because sometimes I don't take my time and it shows in the final product!