WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

I don't know how to link previous thread but here's a brief update - married 22 years, H left Jan 2014 for OW, he is still with her. Lawyers involved, he said he wants a divorce, and wants the finances split.

I don't post very often, but am on this site every day looking for inspiration. I cannot believe it's been almost a year since he left. I saw him shopping with the OW last week and they were holding hands, looking so happy, smiling, in love and its like a dagger to my heart. I have heard he is spending Christmas with her and her parents and family.

I have been getting on with my life and I am busy with work, the house and family, but when will this stop hurting so much? I live in a small town, I am likely to bump into them often and I just don't know how to handle it.

I had hoped like many of you do, that the fog may have lifted somewhat, or the honeymoon period would be over, but it just seems to be getting stronger.

Holidays must be difficult for all of us, and I am filled with gratitude for what I do have, especially having met a friend of H and I who doesn't know if this will be his last Christmas as he has cancer.

The memories of my life with H are with me always, and I am still devastated that he's not here, and said he will never come back.

Sorry for being so negative....