Wife having emotional affair part 4

[3kids]

I wouldn't be to surprised if he doesn't come to the oldest holiday concert tomorrow night. If he does I know what I have to do. It time for the divorce papers. I won't be able to take it. That's just to much pain. I guess the last couple of weeks just where all talk. And meant nothing. I'm very very sad tonight. At least if I get the divorce going I could get my child support correct and I could stop paying on her insurance. I have tried so hard. But at least I tried. I'm very very scared for the next chapter in my life but she's making the choice for me. I guess that's why she said in the last convo that if she ends up alone that's what happens. She has a plan and I'm not in it. The pain is just to much anymore and I know divorce is not the answer but at least it will give me some direction to my new life. Man feel like garbage! God please help me!