Oh yeah, he said, just stay as strong as you have been.
It's like he has no emotional energy to put into a r now, and that stresses him. Hey, I totally get it. I wasn't pressuring- but I think he could sense I as a little agitated when he said he was going there.
But he called me to let me know before he went. He texted when he left, then called immediately after. We talked briefly (he's at capacity now with "dealing"), and texted me a little bit ago, "Don't worry, be happy! Night"
I think he is looking to me for strength. Regardless of what I want, will want (all a ??), I feel I need to give it to him. I can do this. I've held it down before. I can continue to do this and help him, too. Like gently holding his hand through these murky and rough waters. He needs someone and he is looking to me. Not for a r right now, but to have his back. Help give him strength and guidance. He needs to guide himself, but I can walk quietly with him. I think that's what he needs. I need to keep expectations at zero. To continue to strengthen myself.
Thanks, guys, for so much support. It means the world to me.
