Oh AJ, I know, I know! It still is difficult. I understand this, but it's still uncomfortable.
Thanks wonka! You were in my head tonight... I kept thinking.... Do be the sirens... She's got that covered.
I see two steps forward, one step back. We talked very briefly when he got back. He was there 2hrs. I was pretty quite, mainly bc I just thought he wanted to talk. Since I'm pretty much quiet when I sleep.... (Scratch that... I talk and yell in my sleep, and honest to God, I laugh in my sleep more than anything- since I was little!).... He thought something was wrong.
But we both agreed that we need to take things slowly. He is so overwhelmed and I think he sees himself rushing and wants to tap the breaks. I said that I wasn't ready to go so fast and that I felt he was making assumptions of things that we hadn't discussed.
We agreed that right now, the focus is on the kids. However, I can tell he needs me now, but he is very scared, confused, and this baby sitch has got him very overwhelmed. He's kind of freaking out. And of course, she is wanting him to pay to take care if her.... Blah, blah.... She does not get that he is not responsible for HER! Just the baby, if it's his, but those are her meal tickets. Oh, and she tried using her son, again, to guilt him... Oh he misses you and keeps asking about you.... Uhhhh..... What about when she took this little kid away from HIS dad so she could participate in breaking up a family.
Rant over. She is toxic and unhealthy.
Freakin $hiz... If this is his.... OMG..... What an eternity of disaster.... I realize why he is freaking out...
