Really too late....

[lost18]

Ok, so I need help. One of the boundaries I set with H is no contacting OW while the girls and I are home. I'm pretty sure he has been although I have no proof. Tonight, he was out on the lanai on his laptop (typical) he was also texting. I was standing in the kitchen, perfect view of his chair and he was texting away. Sometimes he hides his phone like the other night in the garage. Suddenly, he comes in the house turns off the lights outside (my opinion he was glaring at me while doing so) throws his glasses on the counter. I asked why he was throwing stuff around and he said he wasn't. Went right to "his" room without even saying goodnight to the girls like he usually does.

I know there is some speculation on my part, but now I'm upset. How utterly selfish of him. After 18 years of marriage I deserve much, much better than this.

I don't see anyway to address it without a fight and me getting upset. Do I just ignore it? Let it go? I'm open to suggestions.