Thanks everyone. I don’t think I’m beating myself up for not being over the sitch yet. I’m just tired and want to move on with my life without feeling sad or bitter (sometimes). I guess I do need more time and thanks for supporting me in this.

FY, I am a bit worried that my journey will last until I am dead, LOL. I don’t want to be sad until then. I hope one day it all goes away and I can live my life without this constant feeling in my stomach and my heart.

I’m trying… I might be making some progress actually. I think I do have more evidence of H’s having met someone. And it doesn’t bother me as much. As long as she is not anywhere close to where I am. I might have a problem if he brings her over to the vacation home. But, other than that, I feel kind of numb and indifferent.

I checked my notes and H is going back on Tuesday, not Monday. And then another options for him would be to get a ride with our other friends who I’ve heard would be returning from their vacation home tomorrow or on Tuesday. I’m pretty sure now this is what he is going to do. Hopefully, he will go directly to the airport and I will not have to worry about seeing him or making any arrangements. At the same time, I kind of don’t give a sh!t.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state