I got 99 problems but an MLCer ain't one!

[daring]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers- and LT thanks for sharing your experience. I'm definitely monitoring her status even though it's from afar right now. No dilation in the ventricles so she doesn't need a shunt at this point. They are doing daily imaging.

So H checked in this morning to see if I needed anything from store ( hasn't done that in months) and to ask how my mom is. I asked if he was coming by after store and he said- I'd like to. I said that's fine. ( again hadn't done in months- lately it's just been a brief exchange of kids). He may be having a hard time as the weekends he doesn't have the kids he's usually traveling. Prob hard to be home and no kids.
So he came over and we were talking a little about how I might have to get my mom in to rehab and/or move her in with me for a bit with home nursing care. We talked about converting S8s room ( I had already thought about all of this). He said we could put S8 in S19s room. I said what about when he comes home on breaks? H said " he can stay with me".
Not that I'm not expecting this situation to go on for awhile or even forever, but for some reason that statement made me very sad. I feel like I just can't deal with anymore loss or responsibility. I got up and walked in the kitchen and cried a bit. H followed me and said- I didn't mean to overstep my bounds. I said you didn't at all, I've already thought through it, it's just too much right now.

So then he got to working on moving my old dining set out into the garage ( had to be taken apart so was a bit of work). I didn't ask him to at all- he just did. Also seemed to withdraw some and the when the Christmas tree was delivered he seemed bothered ( wistful- maybe??? I know- no mind reading Daring!). He was very impressed with my job on putting the lights up- which is usually his job.
After finishing up table he was moody. I asked if he was ok- said yes thinks he's just tired and grumpy, needs to go take a nap. He's still spinning, but I think maybe he is starting to think.