Wife having emotional affair part 4

[3kids]

Thank you so much Sandi reading your post lifted my spirtes so much you have no clue. Yesterday I worked a fifteen hour day so I was exhausted when I got home. Crawled into bed and just layed there thinking. Not a good thing. I was thinking about every thing. Did I do the right thing, did I just push her into his arms. Did I wreck any chance I have. Stupid thinking when this happens I wish my brain would shut off. My question is, I know I'm not suppose to believe some stuff. But when she talks like that, she knows what is right and wants to be with me. Asks questions about how it would work if we tried to work it out. Tells me that it will never work with OM and she now has no plans of ever living with him or buying a place together with him. Calls and tells me that she is done with him(at that point she was but the drug kicked back in). Should I believe her? Should this give me some more hope?

This is what comes to my mind. She knows it won't work with him for some reason(his family,her family,kids,housing,money who knows). She still has feelings for me. This drug is not going to go away easy. She wants to cut it off with him but can't. Has told me I'm the missing part in her life. Even when it's with him and the kids or just her with the kids or just her, I'm missing. But when it's just her and him she is some what happy but thinks why couldn't husband do this. Do I believe all this or not? That is the huge question! How long do I hold on to hope?