a young marriage in trouble

[lnlyshp]

Hello again. Got my son back this morning. Very happy to see him. When W showed up to drop him off, I was actually getting back from a run (completely unplanned). I think that surprised her, seeing me active. For the most part things were nice and friendly. I invited her in so that we could discuss the schedule for our son for the week. I told her that since she had him for Thanksgiving, I want him for Christmas. I offered to spend Christmas together (me going over to her mom's or her coming here), should have known that was a mistake. She looked upset the second I suggested it. Am I so horrible for wanting to spend Christmas with my son and trying to give her the opportunity to do so as well? She said it would be too awkward. I apologized later via text and tried to explain myself, to which she responded that she just didn't want to talk about it. I said I understood. Conversation has left me very discouraged.

I just can't stand the way she looks at me. When I brought up the Christmas thing, she looked almost disgusted. I know not to give up hope and that she hasn't had enough time yet, but it is so tough when I keep getting the cold shoulder. I want to imagine a time where she will one day love me again, very hard to picture though after that. She is so closed off to me.

Any words of encouragement/advice would be greatly appreciated.