In order to do this right, I need some time to prepare. I'm not going to be able to produce a newspaper, start another newspaper AND produce layers of truth to support his drug addiction. His parents are as ensconced in protecting his disease as anyone I've ever known. My mother has been a substance abuse counselor for 35 years. I've seen a lot.
One therapist said, about my inlaws, it will take some tragedy of some kind to budge them from their denial. It's very thick. Smokey has always walked the line between the truth (us/his family) and his parent's denial. This time, he went full blown over into the denial.
How do I give myself some time to gather what's needed and sort through all this.
D12 HAS to be my first priority.
Then, my job. I DO NOT WANT to lose out on this other newspaper I was hired to edit. The other one is the lucrative one. I'm on tenuous ground right now with all the careless mistakes I made this first two months. I NEED to focus on this paper to make a decent product in the next two months and set myself up for the best position.
I also need to handle this month of December financially. I simply don't have the money to pay the bills.
I see what Smokey is doing. I can handle it, but not on his timetable. He is, ironically, smoking me out by keeping me in a position of want and desperation financially.
Last edited by LoisB; 11/30/1406:11 PM.
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