You're so right labug. I'm stuck in negative zone. I keep waiting to move past this plateau I'm on... but duh, I need to DO something to move forward.
I guess what I'm grieving now, in part, is that I don't want to reconcile with him-- at least not now. Somehow that feels hard to let go of. He can't love me the way I need and ought to be loved...and maybe he never could.
I don't see him ever opening up and being the kind of man I truly want. But I know stranger things have happened. So I'll just focus on today.
My D basically told me today that she feels like sometimes I don't listen to her, or let her talk. And that's why she doesn't listen to me! Aha! Such wisdom in the little ones.
and another success-- I teased my dad and mom about something... and they didn't get all defensive. They actually laughed at themselves too. :-)
