The Black Knight II

[LoisB]

I'm going to church with D12 at 4. That will help I will put it out there that I need some support from the homeschool community.

My neighbors, family were over on the day we moved out. Some were over after we left. I think I could get them to say the house looked like a house that was in the process of moving. It did.

There were things wrong with the the house that were wrong BEFORE he left. I tried to make the best of it.

I'm not going to sweat that one. At least I see where he and his atty are headed. Smokey is obviously, or his parents, are obviously very convinced that Smokey was wronged.

The family's big dark secret of drug addiction is reaching its climax and I can see my MIL's hand all over this petty stuff. She is the matriarch. If I'm right, it means Smokey hasn't really changed at all throughout all this...he is still a scared little boy being led by his very bitter, very petty, very childish mother.

I find it interesting, though, his desperation to reach out to the kids right now. Yes, he knows me very well. And it goes both ways. I need to use this hard-earned knowledge of all things Smokey. My instincts are awesome when it comes to him. I knew about Skank living with him months before he admitted it.

What the sorta sudden and frantic reaching out to the girls tells me..especially since he is trying with D20...that he hasn't told his family and atty the whole truth about his abandonment. It appears to me like Smokey trying, in the 9th inning, to clear away some rubbish has left in the road. He's trying to make nice so, hopefully, the truth of complete absence in his kids' lives will go undetected.

In addition, he may not use those text messages I sent recently or show them to his atty. Why? I brought up things I know Smokey doesn't want out there. His MIA status and his drug use. IF he showed those to his atty, he will have to address those issues and prepare a defense.

If there's one thing we can count on with Smokey...it's failing a drug test...especially when he's stressed.

He's scared right now. And, my shutting down, D20 shutting him down...he's probably a bit squirrelly right now. I sense he is entrenched with his parents in order to maintain his "Poor Smokey" stance. That means he has to BE around his parents. Smokey can't take too much of them. IMHO, THEY are the reason we are in this mess to begin with.

I need to Keep Calm and Carry On.