Mindsin - Part 7 (Dark times)

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Had another talk with the W again. I made it clear to her that I didn't want to get involved in this type of conversation. She said she had things she wanted to say. I told her I would listen.

The one point she wanted to make was that she doesn't feel like she is the right woman for me -- that she never really was, but didn't have the courage to face reality. She was "going through the motions". We both were. She said that she truly hopes that I find someone who can make me happy, that I deserve better. She said she was sorry that she never treated me the way a husband should be treated, and she broke down in tears. I replied, "I didn't exactly make it easy on you". We both cried, and shared a hug.

While we embraced, she said to me, "We'll get through this tough time together, my old friend."

I'm still processing all of this, and I'm not sure what I'm feeling at this point. It almost feels like a weight has been lifted. We both addressed the feelings of anxiety around each other over the last few months. After our talk, we went out with the kids to have a nice dinner, and to walk around the shops. It was a relaxing time, and I didn't feel any anxiety. I just let go. I think she did too, as she was noticeably different around me (in a good way).

She still intends to file for divorce (as she reiterated), but somehow I was at peace when she said that. I think more and more that she's truly and genuinely moved on, and it goes WAY beyond her affair fog. I suppose only time will tell.