Thanks Job- it was very helpful. S8 and I had a blast picking out decorations and he even put a mini tree in his room and put ornaments on it. I'm glad that despite everything I have some Christmas spirit!

So new stressor today- my mom was visiting family out of state over the holiday and apparently started having headaches and weird symptoms. Then this afternoon she apparently fell when getting up from a chair and they rushed her to hospital. I just talked to doc and she has bleeding in the brain and is not coherent. He is worried about aneurysm.
The first person I called was H. I just needed to at least talk it out. He was very kind and concerned.
I want to fly out there but I have the IRS hearing on Tuesday and I don't know if they would allow me to reschedule. If I don't go they could start takings wages which would be devastating since I'm the only one with income right now. I can't let my kids be affected by the dumb decisions H made with taxes.
H said he would go for me but I think it has to be me since I'm the one negotiating a pay back schedule.
In any case if things get worse with my mom I'll go and try and figure it out. Otherwise will fly out Tues evening.
H said he will help me with whatever I need.
Please say some prayers for her.


Me 41 H 40
M 20 T 23
S 19,16, 8 D 13
BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work
BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D
Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015
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