Since all this began I have become a journalling junkie - in the beginning I could write pages and pages; getting it all out of my head and on to paper truly saved my sanity !! I have now resorted to keeping my journal on my laptop because it was costing me a fortune in pens and paper lol.
As for what things I like doing - yeah, thats a question I have been asking myself for the past 6 months - I feel I need inspiration as I really don't have a clue what I like and who I am anymore. My new thought is to be open to anything, give it a try - see what clicks.
All the things I used to like doing, I don't anymore - may be its a reminder of my past life thats caused it. We met young so I had not really formed any passions or likes for anything in particular - h and my boys were my life - a traditional stay at home mum/HW. I enjoyed all the "at home" things, gardening, cooking, sewing, paper crafts - I got in to pumpkin carving for charity for a few years, even got a website for them, but have lost interest in it all.
I have started writing a bucket list, travel and other. Crossed two off in the past few months:
To buy a designer dress that cost more than everything in my wardrobe (which wasn't hard as I only ever bought sale or 2nd hand clothes) - the dress is my Happy Day dress - the day I am truly at peace with myself and him - hopefully will still fit in it by then as I suspect its going to be a long while yet !!
The other was to visit a psychic. I have friends that are avid believers and it has always intrigued me - so they persuaded me to go; well, I am open to it, take it with a pinch of salt and feel, what happens happens, plus she is cheaper than therapy!! Well, all I can say is that she gave me a 6 month reading and has been pretty spot on with everything - including names of people who will come in to my life -
So I went back to see her last week for another reading before I leave - WOW !! I'm in for an interesting 18months lol. I will have to listen back to the dvd, as it was quite full!
So next on the list is to have Tea at the Ritz - perhaps that can be when I wear my Happy Day dress :o)
