Just had a couple of down days in which I dived into the pool of doom and gloom. It was after he called - just hearing his voice and what he had to tell me.
I did sink really low, even thought about contacting him a couple of times as he was always my "go to guy" but I resisted temptation, distracted and kept telling myself it will pass; this phase will pass. It took all I had to stay focused on this new path, but I have made it through. I kept re reading all that everyone had written to me here which really helped me stay focused.
This morning woke up feeling much calmer, still really sad inside but less of the spinning thoughts of " what happened to us/him" and "what am I going to do" and 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHH" and "I just want him to come home".
I am so glad that I did not contact him, it would have been the worst thing ever, it would have just kept me in the phase for longer and solved nothing.
I dont know what else to write, everything seems -blah - like I am living in a life that is not mine - weird huh.
