Well here I am... Thanksgiving weekend. I am in the mountains with my three boys and H is at his place, at least I think so.
Last monday H called to offer to take care after our dog and I told him the god was joining us for the trip. Then he asked if would be OK to go to the house to get some tax papers to move forward and I said I was not very comfortable with him in a house while I was not there, he got mad and yelled on the phone that I new about this and that we talked about it before. I sad nothing, just let him calm down.
Then he asked me if was OK to take the kids out on tuesday for a kind of Thanksgiving Lunch, I said it was OK of course and he blow again saying that he was just talking and making plans with me.
I know he is very upset because we all left and didn't spend Thanksgiving at home, but what he wants? the good of both worlds?
He leaves for a week vacation w/OW, does not make any plans with his family and think we will just be waiting for him with our open arms?
He is in denial, he wants me out of the picture as soon as possible without talking about, addressing any issues. He just want to be done with it and forget it ever happened.
I feel sad, and angry and offended... 18 years married to this jerk and he just want to run away with someone else and forget about other people existence.
I also found out that he told about our divorce to our chiropractor, really? It just shows to me that he is moving on as he said.
When the boys and I arrived at the hotel I sent him a text saying that we got here save. He replayed next day and wish me a Happy Thanksgiving... I did not wish him the same. What is so happy about when he is destroying our family? He needs to get real.
Yesterday I send him a text saying... Hi! Kids all well so far. He did text this morning saying: "Hope you are all having lots of fun".
I need to understand better inside myself and my heart how to deal with detaching and showing my changes. I want to detach and I keep thinking about him all the time. I think to show my changes but I do not want to see him, it actually feels better away from the whole drama.
I don't know what to do, by my choice I don't see him for two weeks now. I don't know what to do. Reading some posts here, I see that people have a chance many times in reinvesting in their M. I feel so hopeless, I hear H ask to make copies of taxes and I see he has decided and feels like he won't go back on his decision.
Maybe I need to let it happen and see where it goes...
Hope you all had a decent Thanksgiving and is not hurting much during this time of family celebrations.
