I think the fact that we have been able to have this discussion while respecting our own perspectives is wonderful! That's what I love so much about DB forums. A lot of good and supportive people around these parts.
If you don't want a D to happen quickly, you can ask your L to stall and delay. Inform your L that you still want a reconciliation with your W and that D isn't what you want. Oftentimes, Ls will understand your POV and will do what they can legally to delay the D by "forgetting" something.
Have you been able to communicate your wishes to your L?
That's what I love so much about DB forums. A lot of good and supportive people around these parts. 