New Here and very sad.

[Ahoy]

Daisy,
You have been through a lot. Do you both want this divorce? If not, then try not to push it along so fast. But even if it does go through, your life will have new things in store for you, either way. The sadness seems overwhelming now, but it will lessen over time. Don't be afraid to seek medical help for depression if you find yourself in that state. Take care of yourself and be strong and positive for your kids. Make them your priority right now. That's about all you can do. Sending hugs your way.