Wife walked away (4 months ago now) thread 3

[Zues126]

Hey big, still there and rooting you on. Last night at midnight my STBX texted me 'good luck in your pool tournament. Let me know if you are in a live stream table so I can have the kids watch'. At that hour I'm guessing she was drinking by herself and missing the days she would root me on (she told me she missed that once after bomb drop). For just a moment I felt love for her I haven't felt for a month or more. Then I just realized she is still a woman who's values allow her to divorce a man and throw him out of his house and family, have an affair, and drink to oblivion at every chance, all while blaming me for everything. Yes, I'm still tender. But I don't need that. She's not be woman I thought she was and our M was bad even when I thought she was someone she wasnt. I had a moment of silence for the M and went to sleep. I did respond with a short thank you. I know I'm growing more detached because I'm not worried about whether I'm dark enough, or whether I'm backsliding. I really don't care whether she thinks I'm her plan B or not. Feels good. I have a long road ahead, but its been 5.5 months. I'm hoping in another 5.5 it gets even easier. Take care!