Gwen, I'm sorry. I wish that I could wipe it all away for you and your family. It's okay to have those days where you have crying spells. What you are feeling may be a delayed reaction to the holiday. I do hope you will feel better soon. Pamper yourself a bit this evening, i.e., a nice, long, hot bath w/some bubble bath and put on some music and just relax a bit. The rollercoaster is not a fun ride these days for you and many of the other posters. Tighten your seat belt for the ride will be bumpy w/many up an downs and twists and turns, but you will make it. You are a strong and independent woman who needs to go thru all of this pain in order to get to the other side of healing.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
