a young marriage in trouble

[lnlyshp]

Staying positive today. She is still out of town with my boy, so I'm finding new activities to do and trying to stay active. I woke up and played some disc golf today (very fun) and went for a hike with some friends.

I even began to think that I might be better off without her. I mean, I knew we fought a lot and that I was not a perfect husband by any means, but I loved her. I was a good father to our son. I did so much that was in the best interests of my family to the best of my ability. If she wants to leave and try the single life - okay. That stinks. But while she's gone I'm going to get healthy and I'm going to be a better person. Who knows what'll happen? I'm still young. I have a loving family and friends who care about me. I can still be a great dad.

If she wants a divorce, that's her decision. But if she thinks I'm just going to wait around like a sick puppy, she's got another thing coming. I'm sorry that it took so long to get through to me, but now that she has, she will one day have to see someone else reap the benefits of the positive changes I'm making to my life because of it.

I know I'm just speaking from a place of anger and rejection right now. But I need to start looking at the realities of the situation. Maybe she isn't coming back. Doesn't mean I'm gonna be sitting on the sidelines just in case.

- lonelyship