Yesterday I looked nice and spent a lot of time around H but wasn't particularly engaging. Part of it is that I still don't feel well. Part of it is that I am not feeling like I want to win him back. There was never a point where we were alone without the kids so there was that aspect too. But looking back I dont know how much he'd want me back with yesterday's performance.
The past few days H texts me more than I text him. I feel like I'm ignoring him. But it's not like I'm having to stop myself, I just don't feel like being chatty. If it was a question, I'd reply.
All in all, I'm not sure I'm doing anything to attract him back. And that's ok with me right now, but what if I change my mind later and then I've been dull and uninteresting for too long?
