Really too late....

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Wow, what a difference a few hours can make. I went from do I even want this M to being upset (yes, clearly I need to detach) because it seems like his project does not involve me in his future.

He came home with a trailer, bigger than needed, possible too big to be towed by his Jeep. He is talking about putting cabinets in it, insulating it and putting a fold down bed in it so he can haul his Harley to bike rallies and sleep in the trailer. He was telling me what he was thinking and the size of the bed was big enough for one person. I'm aware I'm probably mind-reading but to me that says he doesn't intend for me (or anyone I guess) to go with him.

It has been my misfortune that my emotions show clearly on my face, we were walking back in the house and he asks me "if I'm pi$$ed." I simply answer "why would I be pi$$ed."

I'm so frustrated, with myself mostly, but of course with him. Frustrated that I allow things he is saying and doing to upset me and frustrated because I know there must be a better way to handle these interactions but can't figure out how.