I was married in May of 2013. My husband and I only dated for 1 year before our marriage. I met him after a very stressful time in my life and he was a "breath of fresh air." We began dating the 2nd day we knew each and moved in instantly. Everything was so fast paced. I was pressured into the marriage and can honestly say that I married my husband for comfort, and for guilt bc we were "shacking." Several of his friend and church members (paster included) advocated for our marriege. During our entire relationship, he was financially unstable, I would have to hold down the finances. I began to resent him for not being responsible with the little money he did have. I was verbally abusive and said things such as "we are only roomates, I hate that we rushed, leaved me, and let's get divorced." I helped him through school and introduced him to a man who helped him get into a high paying industry. My angry words pushed my husband away and he left me. He now has a girlfriend, and I hosestly can't blame him. I prayed and began seeing how ugly I was. He's changed his phone number and I am filled with guilt. I now have so much respect for my marriage but I feel like it's too late now. He's been gone for 1 month and wants nothing to do with me. Just wanted to share so other woman (or men) can see how ugly, deadly words and kill a marriege. My husband was not perfect, and began spenking less and less time with me. I slowly pushed him away and now he does not like me.
