The holidays are going to be a definite struggle. In my mind this may be our last together - I am giving in and accepting this a little. this is very painful to me, but I do not express this to W - I wish I could, but I don't think it will be productive.
Had dinner at home with the W and kids and it went pretty well. I try to stay as positive as possible
S20 came home for dinner yesterday which was a surprise. Our interaction has not been very good for the last couple of months and he was going to stay away. He didn't stay here, but it was great that he decided to come home - I think he is coming here again this evening.
W hugged me a couple times yesterday and was crying a couple times. She even gave me a kiss me before she left shopping w/ d14. She has not done that (kissed/hugged) in a very long time. The hugs and kiss all seemed awkward - like we are strangers - and I am scared by this.
I actually hope for a serious talk with W this weekend. I really just want to lay all the cards on the table and figure this out. I don't think that I am going to try to initiate this or remind W that she wanted to talk, but I hope she is thinking of it. The family time seems to be affecting her a little.
Me-45 W-44 S21, S18, D15 T-27, M-21 BD Jan 2014 PA revealed March 2014 In-house separation - April 2015 I filed - Aug 2015 She moved out Oct 2015
