Busting this Divorce - Standing Firm

[HPoirot]

W left without telling me this morning while I was ice cold showering. Took the car. Told S11 she was going shopping or to the grocery.

Even before that, though.... I don't like her this morning. I don't like how I'm acting friendly towards all this.

I'm back now to exposing everything to her family and friends, my family, and OM's family and job. She's still giving off the good wife picture to everyone. Talking about me on the phone with her friends like nothing is wrong. Posting the picture of me, her, and boy that I had taken on her FB page like we're a family. Expecting me to work with her to get things back to normal. To help her life and her stress while she chooses to not change... not do better... and sleep on the couch.

How can exposure not be the right thing to do to defend my family? I should have done it on the first day when she cried no don't do it... OM has a reputation. Like his life is more important than ours. Like I just have to suck it up for them b/c I wasn't a good H. She cries she's so afraid of being judged. Why am I not letting her be judged? I let this thing happen and grow being quiet all these weeks.

Doesn't she have to start living with her choices? It's worse than simply moving herself to the couch.

What I'm I doing going through another day of this?