I got 99 problems but an MLCer ain't one!

[daring]

Happy Thanksgiving all!
So I'm not so sure I can get through today with a poker face. H dropped of the kids early and is heading to pick up S19 b/c he blew a tire on his way last night. ( it's only 1 1/2 hrs away so not too bad- I can't go b/c I'm on call). H even called me at 3am to let me know as I was expecting him home- so that was nice.
He brought the Turkey this morning and chit chatted a little with me. I went back in my bathroom to finish getting ready as I had to round. D13 was being snotty which irritated me but I handled well.
H came in the bathroom to see if I needed anything before I left. Also said looks like we made need butter- which I did forget. I kept getting ready ( make up, hair etc) while talking and told him I'd pick some up on way back from rounding.
He seemed bothered- just was staring at me- then said ok well if there's anything else you need just text me.
I don't know if it's that I'm distant that's bothering him or what.
I don't want to be closed off and self protective- that's part of what I didn't do well in our martiage some of the time- although his behavior toward me and EA contributed greatly to that. I wasn't closed off shortly after BD, but now I seem to need that space. It's just too painful not to have the walls up right now. I don't want to make things worse- but this is where I'm at.
Off to round and hopefully regroup my brain before dinner.