Today is going to be much harder than I thought. Checked FB this am and first post was my SIL posting on how thankful she was to wake up next to her H (my H 's brother) and fur babies and spend time with her family. Both inlaws had already liked her status. Instant decision to stay off FB for the day. Perhaps the whole weekend.
H is sleeping in a hotel room literally three miles away. Might as well be 3,000. He's struggling right now, meds don't seem to be working and he's getting bad side effects. Not sleeping. All I want to do is go over there and curl up in bed with him and tell him that it will be ok. That we are going to be ok.
But I don't know that. And I can't do that. Instead I sent him a text saying that I hoped he was able to get sleep and that he had safe travels wherever the holidays may take him.
When this all started, I foolishly thought we'd have this sorted out by the holidays. I don't know if I should laugh or cry.
I think I'm going to opt to cry. Take a nap, and go to my parents house where I will probably cry some more but will do my best to enjoy the day.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
