Busting this Divorce - Standing Firm

[HPoirot]

Yes that does make sense Wonka. Thank you for getting me straight on the intension of your script.

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Had a good day and night. No R talks... no OM back and forth... a couple pleasant phone calls... and tonight I left her alone and let her initiate a couple pleasantries around our boy.

She's downstairs on the couch now. Was up here in the bedroom watching tv. When I came up to ice cold shower... I said "Hey" and she grumpily replied and then went down while I was in the shower. She turned her light off without saying Good Night. Should I say goodnight? When I go to bed first I do nowadays. But when she's leaving or going to bed or waking up without saying anything? Right... just decide to not take it personally and then don't. I don't.

Even so, I felt sad about that. It's like we're adversaries. Maybe I'm creating that dynamic somehow... always smiling and showering every morning and evening and looking positive around her while I'm secretively typing on this computer late each night and she's dragging herself around the house looking tired and miserable (around me).

I don't want that but there it is.

I'm feeling OK right now. Not as hopeless as last night. Not as good as the night before last. Still don't know how I get to the long goal of R... but I'm sure I can make the short goal of a happy day tomorrow happen.

Onward.