Hey my girls, shining & Heather. Don't have my laptop bc xh "fixed" it & I no longer have connection. Gotta use my phone.
Man, he ticked me off tonight.
Things got intense w s17. Ended up calling police. I can't believe it's come to this, but he was in check tonight. Not happy, but followed rules.
Xh spent much of the evening here. Towards the end he started criticizing things. I was painting the dining room the whole night. I got so ticked. He was sawing things about the new bathroom I had finished. He asked if I wanted him to cry critique it. I was like, no, do you want me to critique your shoebox livingroom with furniture jam packed in it, which I saw for 2 seconds and you won't win if I say what I'm thinking. He was like, why are you getting mad?
I finished touching up the paint, did a quick clean up and got in the shower. A few min later he came to the door. He was like, bye, thanks. See you later.
I just said bye.
I don't know that I can do this. I mean, it was nice for a long time. He and d13 curled up on the couch as she caught him up on the latest. It was really nice to see.
But I don't need this. I don't need someone to critique me. How about saying something nice? I got the phone calls here at the house saying your and hww's furniture is in. While you and her shopped for your new house and you worked on that house & I was left w a disaster, not making a new house my own. The fun stuff. Doing electrical & plumbing & overwhelmed w EVERYTHING. Ugh, I just don't know that I can do this.
As much as I think do much less of HWW, I wonder things. Like as he says that, I get pi$$ed. Then I wonder if he is thinking about her. Then his bro sends a grp msg to a bunch of us. Xh who is in the msg obviously does not have phone. Is it bc if her? I don't think I can handle that.
He is home now, is he txting her? See I don't think I can do this. I punched the shower tiles. My hand hurts. That's the second time in a week. Last time it was a metal desk. Ugh.
Just say something friggin nice! Or get the f out. Bye, Felicia!
