The wedding wasn't as awkward as I expected. It was the first one both W and I have been to since S. The boys and I got there first and we didn't save W and D10 a seat, so they ended up sitting across the aisle from us. Then 'our' song was played right before the bride walked down the aisle. I had planned on leaving right after the ceremony, but stuck around and made small talk with different people. W and I didn't interact. We ended up leaving as they were doing the couples dance. Not sure if W took that as a cue or what. Oh, and I made sure to look good (and got several compliments)!!
W and kids are in FL and I had taken the week off from work, so I've been doing some things around the house, basketball, church, doing some Christmas shopping, meeting up with friends for dinner...trying to keep myself busy, but it's still pretty quiet without the kids here.
It's been about a week since I sent W an email asking when she could give me half of the dissolution cost so that I could go ahead with the next atty meeting. She still hasn't responded. I sent a follow up yesterday morning asking her thoughts and still nothing from her. It would be easy to just respond 'I can give you $ on such and such date..' so I'm assuming she's still torn. However, I'm not torn anymore.
I think I would have been able to get over the R with OM in time, but to find out there was more to it and at least 1 other (and who knows how many more or how far back it goes) helped take my blinders off. Even if by some miracle, W came to me saying she'd do anything, tell me all, etc- I don't know that it would matter to me. I feel good about myself, a lot more confident and more responsible. I've basically been living as D for the past 8 mos or so, so I don't see that a lot would change once it's official. And I'm just fine with that.
