Blindsided and on my own (10)

[Jefe]

And here is where my feelings lie.

I don't want my marriage that I had back either. That one suc*ed. I do, however want a new marriage with my wife if at all possible.

Jefe I thought the same thing for a long time. But I have come to see, in my case anyway, that a new M isn't possible because he's the same guy. He doesn't see the need to be any different. I have made changes, yes, but that's the reason I'm seriously considering moving on. In no way will my changes alone create a new M. He has to change, too, and right now he doesn't even think he needs to. Expecting a new M with the exact same H is not realistic.

Very true.