On the brink, need a miracle

[Onguard]

I met with my lawyer this week. I took half of the money out of our joint checking acct. I have shut off her companion credit cards. I changed my direct deposit to my own account. I told her to come up with a budget for her monthly living expenses. Her reaction has been predictable so far. She got upset, accused me of playing games, threatened to make the divorce painful for me. I'm just staying as calm as possible and letting her know that she has made her choices and now I am making mine. D is not what I want but it appears to be my only option.

Last night I went to dinner with a group of friends, so still doing my best to GAL. She is planning on moving out next week but I'm not sure which days. We walk around the house avoiding each other, it is so uncomfortable. Anytime we try to discuss anything it turns into an argument with her speaking to me like Sh*t. I have come to the conclusion that our M cannot be saved. She is too far gone. She says she needs time to "think and process without any pressure from me". Translation: I want to party and date without any interference as well as test the waters of living on my own while keeping you as plan b.

Tomorrow is the 6 month anniversary of bomb drop and I have basically been a doormat the entire time until now. I tried following the rules but was not very successful. Excuses are a dime a dozen so I won't offer any. It hurts, plain and simple. I miss the life we had, our family, the woman she was, the happiness and the security. I always had 100% confidence in our love for each other. Then my world was turned upside down and it feels like it will never be right again.

I don't see any other options. She has clearly checked out of the marriage, she has no interest in trying start over with me, she is behaving like she is 30 again and she has decided to move out. I can sit here like a doormat or I can do exactly what Theoden suggested and get on with my life. The only things about me that she values are financial security and comfort zone. It's not much but it's all I can use to show her what life will be like without me.