Busting this Divorce - Standing Firm

[HPoirot]

Thank you so much sandi for your thoughts on my W's email. Hearing that you understand how she feels is a great comfort to me on this DB path b/c I can feel better that this is the best approach. And, I am grateful that W took the time to write it at the end of such a hard day for us. It helps me remember that she doesn't completely hate me though that is a temping thought considering.

I'm also grateful in a way that her feelings are not uncommon given our history and that a bad M can change and then thrive as a result of facing real feelings like hers and mine. I find maybe I rely too much on that hope.

I admit that I am afraid I trample on her feelings in all this. I want to listen to and understand her instead of pulling back or treating her in any way like an adversary. Even so, I'm going to keep going on this DB path and do it better than yesterday. I just have to deal with my fears. I can.

Thank you so much for letting me know when I fall of this path. I do see that I'm getting better at this and at being me being better me.

She'll be home soon. I don't think she'll ask to make me a drink today. I do wish I had shared one with her yesterday. She lives in my home... and I miss her very much.