Journaling: last night was a nothing kind of night, I spent most of it with my leg propped up. I watched some of the Heat game, and read some of my new Ford book. S19 went to dinner and spend the night with H. D16 and her bf went to dinner with friends, but picked up food for me and D12 first so I didn't have to cook. Have I mentioned I have great kids?
This morning's mood puts me back in the position of "I don't want to be M to this man, but I'm willing to be his friend." We exchanged a couple of texts about the logistics of Thanksgiving yesterday and it was all pleasant. I didn't respond to his text last night that was just a chatty narrative about what he and S19 had done all evening. But in my mind I was thinking why shouldn't I reply to him in the same way I'd reply to any friend? If I was willing to overlook his A to be his W, I can overlook it to be his friend. I know others have different opinions, but that's where I stand today. Ask me this afternoon, I may have a different opinion.
IC threw out some phrases and ideas yesterday that I had not previously been willing to entertain. That I will date again. That I might marry again. That I would be a good stepmother -- that one has never occurred to me at all. That I would be a good daughter in law to a different family. She's not pushing me by any means but I like how she tries to get me to think outside the box. The box I live in in pretty small these days. At the very least, I could move to a bigger box.
