I'm at the age where I'm leaning from my mistakes. I don't want to make the same poor choices I used when I'm hurting and my emotions are tender, and hope it works out for the best some how. That's just asinine.

Getting into an R before I'm ready isn't a benefit to me. It causes more complications than is worth it, and a lot of exhausting emotional effort besides. Getting into a physical situation when I'm vulnerable is not a good idea for me, personally, either.

I'm actually proud of my choice not to entangle myself. I'm being honest with me, my wants and my limits, and not participating in the potential complication of another person, too.

Doesn't mean I don't wish I could be well on the other side of this, but I'm an amazing person and have a lot to offer someone that knows the measure of my personality and my capacity to love and wants to be in my life. Because they're CHOOSING me.


I'm holding out for GREAT things, whether that's BF or not.

ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies